Don’t be like β€œAtlas” πŸŒ

There’s a very old building that used to be a Health Spa in Scarsdale, NY.

It was called the European Health Spa.

It’s such an eye sore in such a beautiful town.

Broken Windows

Abandoned

Patched up with Cheap Wood

The building stands tall but alone. πŸ˜”

That was me not long ago.

I was a broken woman. An emotional wreck. Unknowing of who I was or my purpose in life.

I felt abandoned by loved ones and to a certain extent, I abandoned myself. I let myself go and didn’t care about taking care of me (my mental, spiritual and emotional being).

I would patch myself up by finding ways to avoid issues, conflicts and things that really needed to be addressed.

I stood tall and strong to others but felt very much alone & abandoned.

Just like the building.

I passed it as I was driving to my appointment at the European Wax Center in Yonkers and came across this building on Central Park Avenue. (BTW Nel is the absolute BEST Esthetician ever!) Book her @ https://www.waxcenter.com/ny-yonkers

⬆️ (Unpaid Plug – But the more You read my Blogs you’ll learn that I love to celebrate, praise πŸ™ŒπŸΎ & promote others; just because πŸ€·πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ)

This sounds crazy but out of all the business’ on Central Park Avenue ( & there are many); I felt like this building called out to me – as if it wanted to be noticed.

I made a (legal) U-Turn πŸ™ˆ and pulled into the parking lot.

I got out of my car and literally just stared at the building.

I could see what it once was – a beautiful building that probably received a lot of attention. The structure is absolutely stunning and in the front of the building is a statue of Atlas (a Titan God in Greek Mythology).

Just to give you my quick Blip about Atlas. He was at war with Zeus (Greek God) & after his defeat, he was condemned to carry the sky/heavens on his shoulders. πŸ˜” Talk about a harsh punishment.

I remember when I felt like I had the weight of the world 🌍 on my shoulders.

I was so weighed down by my issues ( & there were many). My view of self was so skewed.

I was the beat up & abandoned building. πŸ€•

I can tell you how I got there.

I isolated from my friends, family and God.

I was attending Church β›ͺ, but I was just there as a seat warmer. I didn’t receive anything because I was so blinded by my issues & I wasn’t open to receiving anything.

As time progressed I tried to patch myself up by simply avoiding things that I needed to deal with head on.

Using 4 Christian ✝️ cliche words, I can tell you how I matured into the woman I am now. I learned to “Let Go, & Let God!” Welp, that’s really 5 words but let’s focus on the 4. πŸ˜‰

When you “Let Go”, you stop giving all of your energy to worrying, fretting and stressing a situation or an issue.

When you “Let God”, you invite him in & put all your worries, frets and stresses to him because unlike Atlas – he is strong enough to bare them. ( Don’t believe me?! Read Psalm 55:22 & Matthew 11:28-30)

If Atlas could hand over the weight to someone he would be able to rest.

There are many of you trying to be Atlas … trying to be God

But

You aren’t strong enough to do that

&

You never will be.

Trust Me – I’m speaking from experience. πŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ

Learn to hand over all of the things that are weighing you down to be handled by God.

Don’t be like the broken and abandoned building 🏚 that everyone passes by.

Allow God to build you up so you can mature and grow into the man πŸ‘¨ / woman πŸ‘© that he called you to be.

YOU & I are a BEAUTIFUL creations carefully crafted by God.

You & I can be built up and restored again.

All you have to do is invite God in & let him do his thing.

Again I say – Trust Me – I’m speaking from experience.

Praying for whoever needs to be restored & believing that you will! πŸ™πŸ½πŸ™ŒπŸΎ

Signed with so much Love & Of Course JOY,

Joyfully Chrissy Lee πŸŒ»πŸ’«

Prayer – Lord, I come before you today on behalf of every Broken person. I ask that you give them the strength to speak up and ask for help from you and wise counsel. May they learn to go to you when they are feeling broken because your word says you will hold their hand and help them. (Isaiah 41:13) I cry out to you Lord and ask you to deliver them out of their troubles. (Psalms 34:17)

Now I thank you and praise you for their healing.

In Jesus Name,

Amen πŸ™πŸ½

Christina 🌻

Yep …. That’s me.

Silly. Loving. Thinker. Unique. Introverted.

The name Joyfully Chrissy Lee was basically given to me.

I’m always described as Joyful so hence the first name Joyfully.

The Chrissy Lee came from one of the women that raised me (Grandma πŸ‘΅πŸΎ).

My legal name is Christina but many family members call me Chris or Chrissy.

One day my Grandma sang out my name as she called to me “Chrisssssyyyyyy Lee” and that’s how the name came to be. (Thanks Grandma πŸ’•).

I love to express and ✍🏾 allows me to do so.

I’ve always been introverted for as long as I can remember.

I love being around people and it does bring me Joy but I receive much more Joy when I get to be with self.

This blog site was started some time ago, so I have always written about my experiences and highs & lows of my Christian ✝️ walk of life but today I just wanted to give you guys & gals a snapshot of me.

Here’s 10 Random Facts About Me – I’ll try my best to give you guys something you don’t know from reading my Blogs. πŸ™ˆ

1. Born in January of 1985 – repping my Birthplace of Mt Vernon, NY.

2. A good ole pair of Chucks (Converse for those who are confused) are my go to πŸ‘Ÿ.

3. I have scars on both of my thumbs from sucking my thumbs πŸ‘πŸΎ – Yes I was a thumb sucker until the age of 13. πŸ™ˆ

4. My son and I have a Birthmark in the same place. It’s on our left knee.

5. I enjoy watching Football 🏈 and I’m a #NYJets fan! (Team Gang Green πŸ’š)

6. I’m lactose intolerant. (My 🚽 will agree)

7. I dance all the time when home alone. I’m talking about really dancing…. like shake a tail feather, salsa, wine and line dance. (In my head – I can truly bust a move πŸ’ƒπŸΎπŸ‘―β€β™€οΈπŸšΆπŸΎβ€β™€οΈ) I absolutely LOVE music and its very much a strong part of my life.

8. I value my Family, My Friends and All those closest to me but I need to do a better job of showing I do πŸ™πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ.

8 Plus – I’m loyal to a fault. πŸ˜”

9. I love strawberries πŸ“, watermelon πŸ‰ and Cortland Apples 🍎.

10. Behind my smile is a story you would never truly understand.

Bonus – I tend to use a heavy dose of sarcasm when pissed off.

There it goes! A little over 10 facts about me.

After sharing all of that – I feel a hell of exhausted 😩 and need to go back to my shell – Away from the Digital World.

Logging Off Until Next Time

Signed with JOY,

Joyfully Chrissy Lee 🌻

P.S. If you would like to purchase the hoodie in my photo. I purchased it from www.kingdomnative.com

You’ll get 10% off of your 1st order.

P.S.S. No I wasn’t paid to promote them. πŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ Just wanted to show them some love and get you some dope Christian apparel.

Mind Over Mind

August 26th, 2017

7:21am

Kissimmee, FL

The day after Universal Studios – Orlando Florida.

I was pooped.

I walked into the living room …

And there he was;

My handsome, too smart for his own good, silly, loving 10 year old (Now 11 Year Old) was fast asleep.

He was pooped too.

Amusement parks can suck all the energy from you. 😣

I sat down in the bed and just stared at him.

I skipped down the memory lane of motherhood – boy did I have some ups and downs.

I thanked God for blessing me with the “Gift of Motherhood” and asked that he continue to hold my hand along the way.

I dwelled in my positive thoughts and then this mind of mine decided to go left. πŸ˜”

Ugh …. the frustrations of being a thinker. I mean really being a thinker. (As I’m writing this, I’m thinking about work, the political climate in the U.S., losing weight and how to keep myself from eating this Twinkie staring at me.) πŸ’­πŸ’­

END THOUGHT – BACK TO WHERE WE LEFT OFF FROM ☝️🏽

You’re in a nice place of positive thinking and then the negative clouds tries to creep in. 🀐

I replayed some moments where I could have done something differently …. beat myself up because I missed my son’s 1st word and his 1st step because I was at work. I questioned if I work too much. Rationalizing about how I can be a better mother …. And then the big one …. the thought I try to avoid creeps in:

Why didn’t I conceive again after having J.C.?!

Did I put my career 1st?

Why did I go back and forth between wanting to have another?

Why couldn’t I conceive when I tried?!

Am I only meant to have 1 child?!

Have I fulfilled my purpose as a mother of 1?

Ugh …. I hate going there…. emotionally ….. mentally…. that question just drains me.

I dwelled there a little.

Trying to rationalize things that can’t be rationalized in life – not without driving yourself Crazy.

What is wrong with my body?

Why ……

And then a sudden jolt of reality hit me.

Literally.

My son kicked me in my upper thigh as he changed positions in bed.

As I rubbed my thigh, I chuckled and looked up.

“Thank You Lord.” (As a baby πŸ‘ΆπŸΎ, J.C. would kick the heck out of me while he was in my womb.)

I guess he knew I was going down a dark path that would lead me to a pool of sadness in thoughts.

I looked at J.C. and thanked him too.

He has a way of always getting me back to where I need to be. … And this happens all too often. Lol πŸ™ˆ

Mentally… I got back to where I needed to be.

Thanking God for being a mother of 2 – my 1 Biological Child and also my son from my previous marriage who is beginning his 1st year of College in VA.

I thanked God for children – My God Daughter, Step Children, Nieces and Nephews as well as adoptive Children from work – that he placed in my life.

I began to feel more at peace.

The package of motherhood comes in many forms.

Children come in many forms and don’t just have to be yours by D.N.A.

I’m thankful for all that I have and all that I will have in the future.

Sometimes we are in a good place and then let the enemy come in and do a 360 and it starts with our thoughts.

Remain thankful and always try your best to focus on the good.

There are so many miracles in our life if we just meditate on them and stay there; our positive and humble thoughts can keep us in a positive mode for a long time .

Don’t allow the devil to distort your thoughts and take you down a dark path .

Keep your mind in a food place. Keep your thoughts positive.

Ending on a positive note,

Signed with JOY,

Joyfully Chrissy Lee πŸ’«πŸŒ»

Stay Positive. Stay Joyful.

Proverbs 17:22 A joyful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.

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