Don’t be like β€œAtlas” πŸŒ

There’s a very old building that used to be a Health Spa in Scarsdale, NY.

It was called the European Health Spa.

It’s such an eye sore in such a beautiful town.

Broken Windows

Abandoned

Patched up with Cheap Wood

The building stands tall but alone. πŸ˜”

That was me not long ago.

I was a broken woman. An emotional wreck. Unknowing of who I was or my purpose in life.

I felt abandoned by loved ones and to a certain extent, I abandoned myself. I let myself go and didn’t care about taking care of me (my mental, spiritual and emotional being).

I would patch myself up by finding ways to avoid issues, conflicts and things that really needed to be addressed.

I stood tall and strong to others but felt very much alone & abandoned.

Just like the building.

I passed it as I was driving to my appointment at the European Wax Center in Yonkers and came across this building on Central Park Avenue. (BTW Nel is the absolute BEST Esthetician ever!) Book her @ https://www.waxcenter.com/ny-yonkers

⬆️ (Unpaid Plug – But the more You read my Blogs you’ll learn that I love to celebrate, praise πŸ™ŒπŸΎ & promote others; just because πŸ€·πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ)

This sounds crazy but out of all the business’ on Central Park Avenue ( & there are many); I felt like this building called out to me – as if it wanted to be noticed.

I made a (legal) U-Turn πŸ™ˆ and pulled into the parking lot.

I got out of my car and literally just stared at the building.

I could see what it once was – a beautiful building that probably received a lot of attention. The structure is absolutely stunning and in the front of the building is a statue of Atlas (a Titan God in Greek Mythology).

Just to give you my quick Blip about Atlas. He was at war with Zeus (Greek God) & after his defeat, he was condemned to carry the sky/heavens on his shoulders. πŸ˜” Talk about a harsh punishment.

I remember when I felt like I had the weight of the world 🌍 on my shoulders.

I was so weighed down by my issues ( & there were many). My view of self was so skewed.

I was the beat up & abandoned building. πŸ€•

I can tell you how I got there.

I isolated from my friends, family and God.

I was attending Church β›ͺ, but I was just there as a seat warmer. I didn’t receive anything because I was so blinded by my issues & I wasn’t open to receiving anything.

As time progressed I tried to patch myself up by simply avoiding things that I needed to deal with head on.

Using 4 Christian ✝️ cliche words, I can tell you how I matured into the woman I am now. I learned to “Let Go, & Let God!” Welp, that’s really 5 words but let’s focus on the 4. πŸ˜‰

When you “Let Go”, you stop giving all of your energy to worrying, fretting and stressing a situation or an issue.

When you “Let God”, you invite him in & put all your worries, frets and stresses to him because unlike Atlas – he is strong enough to bare them. ( Don’t believe me?! Read Psalm 55:22 & Matthew 11:28-30)

If Atlas could hand over the weight to someone he would be able to rest.

There are many of you trying to be Atlas … trying to be God

But

You aren’t strong enough to do that

&

You never will be.

Trust Me – I’m speaking from experience. πŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ

Learn to hand over all of the things that are weighing you down to be handled by God.

Don’t be like the broken and abandoned building 🏚 that everyone passes by.

Allow God to build you up so you can mature and grow into the man πŸ‘¨ / woman πŸ‘© that he called you to be.

YOU & I are a BEAUTIFUL creations carefully crafted by God.

You & I can be built up and restored again.

All you have to do is invite God in & let him do his thing.

Again I say – Trust Me – I’m speaking from experience.

Praying for whoever needs to be restored & believing that you will! πŸ™πŸ½πŸ™ŒπŸΎ

Signed with so much Love & Of Course JOY,

Joyfully Chrissy Lee πŸŒ»πŸ’«

Prayer – Lord, I come before you today on behalf of every Broken person. I ask that you give them the strength to speak up and ask for help from you and wise counsel. May they learn to go to you when they are feeling broken because your word says you will hold their hand and help them. (Isaiah 41:13) I cry out to you Lord and ask you to deliver them out of their troubles. (Psalms 34:17)

Now I thank you and praise you for their healing.

In Jesus Name,

Amen πŸ™πŸ½

The Good Fight πŸ₯Š

Ever watched a Boxing πŸ₯Š Match?

Ever seen the one who seems that they will end up losing because they are beat to a pulp?

Eyes Swollen Closed, Face Beat Up, Blood Dripping Down Their Face.

…. Just looking defeated

Overwhelmed

Beat Up

&

Broken down

Each punch they receive breaks them more and more.

That was me ….. completely beaten down before I decided to make the decision to yield to God and his will for my life.

I allowed the enemy to beat me to a pulp and I must say all of this happened post being saved …. yes that means during my journey with Christ.

This battle occurred after I received Christ in my β™₯️ & after being baptized.

I was fighting his will and consistently attending β›ͺ️, running a women’s group at β›ͺ️, facilitating classes for new Christians and New Church Members ….. yep.

▢️ Sorry to burst your bubble if you believe being a Christian is easy πŸ™ˆ. ◀️

The war was on all while doing work for the kingdom. ✝️

I mean I received a good beating and this beating lasted over a period of time …. days …. months …. heck years to be exact. πŸ€”

It was a never ending tussle between my way and his way.

Blame it on my feelings. Blame it on my flesh. Blame it on my stubbornness. The point of blame is null and void.

On the surface – I looked Good & Poised – as if I was at peace within.

Peace was so foreign to me.

My spirit was restless and unsettled and so was my mind.

That’s how our spirits and minds are when we fight.

Picture The Match

πŸ‘€ –

We have Michael Buffer announcing “On my right, I have Christina’s Will & Way standing tall at 5’8, stubborn and unwilling to yield because she wants to do what she wants to do.

“On my left, we have God’s Will standing Mighty & Strong with Mercy and Grace ready to fight the good fight.

I felt like Drago from Rocky IV was in front of me saying: “I must break you.”

Then He Yells – “Lets get ready to rummmmbbblllleeeeeeeee!” πŸ₯ŠπŸ₯ŠπŸ₯ŠπŸ₯Š

Fast Forward to the end and I’m literally laid out on the floor with a White Flag 🏳 (I know there’s no white flag in boxing but you get what I’m saying). πŸ˜†

I was in total submission. Tired of fighting.

Matthew 6:33 tells us to seek his wills and ways.

Jesus submitted to God’s will, suffered badly but did overcome. πŸ’ͺ🏾

The same goes for us. There is a suffering but we do overcome.

Always remember that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who ❀️ God. (Romans 8:28) πŸ™ŒπŸΎ

So take some advice from me ….. and just yield and let God have his way. 😩

Let him use YOU ….. your personality, your gifts and your talents to help others.

Let him use you for his plan.

& for the control freaks out there; we may not know the specifics of the plan but I’m pretty certain you will be helping those in need.

We weren’t created to just live life for us. We were created to serve and bring Glory to the Father and his Kingdom.

I write to you as a flawed Christian with many blemishes that I have acquired along the way.

I also write to you from experiences….. past and present.

Try living for him …. I’m certain you won’t regret it. πŸ˜‰

Humbled By His Grace & Mercy,

Joyfully Chrissy Lee 🌻

The Joy of the Lord will Always Be My Strength πŸ™ŒπŸΎ

Introverted to a Fault πŸ˜©

I TRULY ENJOY TIME TO MYSELF!!!!

Let me say that again – I truly enjoy time to myself.

I don’t think there is anything wrong with that but I’ve had to advocate that very statement quite often. (I’ll elaborate later on πŸ˜‰)

I believe I actually crave for “time with self.”

My quiet time is so important to my sense of well being.

Now – Let this be known – I enjoy social gatherings and I do pop out of my 🐒 shell from time to time but there’s a sense of peace that I receive when I take some me time.

Announcement ‼️ There was a time where my introverted traits kept me in a low place in life and that’s where the title of this Blog comes in – Introverted to a fault. πŸ˜‘

If you have read my previous Blogs (which if you haven’t; you should & while you’re there just make sure you subscribe πŸ˜‰) – Cheesy Plug – then you would know that I had my bouts with Depression.

Being introverted and being in a depressive state is not a good mix.

Why? (You May ask and even if you didn’t I will explain)

Introverts think πŸ€” often. We can internalize our feelings and moods because we are pretty much inward people. Remember – we like alone time; so imagine alone time mixed in with overthinking and juggling your emotions?! That’s not a healthy blend of soup but I was sipping that lonesome 🍲 for quite some time.

I would have these seasons of low points and when my friends would inquire, I would pull out my “Girl, you know I need my me time!” excuse.

I would use my introverted nature to cover up my depression. Now that I think back at those moments, it was such a dumb thing to do because I truly believe my friends knew I was lying. πŸ€₯

As I am writing this I must say; it truly feels good to be speaking about depression in past tense. It’s been quite a journey and it feels so good to finally be at peace with my many thoughts and emotions.

So I close this Blog with a couple of things.

1. I’m still very much an introvert and I love that I am comfortable being alone to recharge but I am well aware that social interaction is good, healthy and needed. For those who helped me come out of my introverted shell – THANK YOU ☺️

2. Being an introvert and being depressed are two different things but if blended together can be very unhealthy. If you are currently struggling don’t be afraid to tell someone. There are people to help you in your journey of finding peace✌🏾. My help came through expressing my feelings, praying, acknowledging I needed help and then seeking help.

3. There are pros of being introverted. I believe we are very self-aware, thoughtful (because we think too darn much) and we overall learn well through observing ( since we always find a quiet place to pull away lol)

Lastly, it’s been a while since I last Blogged – so to my subscribers which I love so so so much – My sincerest apologies and I will do better. ❀️

Signed with JOY πŸŒ»πŸ’«,

Joyfully Chrissy Lee

P.S. —> For those who need assistance on their journey to having a peace of mind; feel free to check out some good reads about Mental Health Awareness . ⬅️ (Not a paid plug but this definitely helped me) πŸ™‚

Mind Over Mind

August 26th, 2017

7:21am

Kissimmee, FL

The day after Universal Studios – Orlando Florida.

I was pooped.

I walked into the living room …

And there he was;

My handsome, too smart for his own good, silly, loving 10 year old (Now 11 Year Old) was fast asleep.

He was pooped too.

Amusement parks can suck all the energy from you. 😣

I sat down in the bed and just stared at him.

I skipped down the memory lane of motherhood – boy did I have some ups and downs.

I thanked God for blessing me with the “Gift of Motherhood” and asked that he continue to hold my hand along the way.

I dwelled in my positive thoughts and then this mind of mine decided to go left. πŸ˜”

Ugh …. the frustrations of being a thinker. I mean really being a thinker. (As I’m writing this, I’m thinking about work, the political climate in the U.S., losing weight and how to keep myself from eating this Twinkie staring at me.) πŸ’­πŸ’­

END THOUGHT – BACK TO WHERE WE LEFT OFF FROM ☝️🏽

You’re in a nice place of positive thinking and then the negative clouds tries to creep in. 🀐

I replayed some moments where I could have done something differently …. beat myself up because I missed my son’s 1st word and his 1st step because I was at work. I questioned if I work too much. Rationalizing about how I can be a better mother …. And then the big one …. the thought I try to avoid creeps in:

Why didn’t I conceive again after having J.C.?!

Did I put my career 1st?

Why did I go back and forth between wanting to have another?

Why couldn’t I conceive when I tried?!

Am I only meant to have 1 child?!

Have I fulfilled my purpose as a mother of 1?

Ugh …. I hate going there…. emotionally ….. mentally…. that question just drains me.

I dwelled there a little.

Trying to rationalize things that can’t be rationalized in life – not without driving yourself Crazy.

What is wrong with my body?

Why ……

And then a sudden jolt of reality hit me.

Literally.

My son kicked me in my upper thigh as he changed positions in bed.

As I rubbed my thigh, I chuckled and looked up.

“Thank You Lord.” (As a baby πŸ‘ΆπŸΎ, J.C. would kick the heck out of me while he was in my womb.)

I guess he knew I was going down a dark path that would lead me to a pool of sadness in thoughts.

I looked at J.C. and thanked him too.

He has a way of always getting me back to where I need to be. … And this happens all too often. Lol πŸ™ˆ

Mentally… I got back to where I needed to be.

Thanking God for being a mother of 2 – my 1 Biological Child and also my son from my previous marriage who is beginning his 1st year of College in VA.

I thanked God for children – My God Daughter, Step Children, Nieces and Nephews as well as adoptive Children from work – that he placed in my life.

I began to feel more at peace.

The package of motherhood comes in many forms.

Children come in many forms and don’t just have to be yours by D.N.A.

I’m thankful for all that I have and all that I will have in the future.

Sometimes we are in a good place and then let the enemy come in and do a 360 and it starts with our thoughts.

Remain thankful and always try your best to focus on the good.

There are so many miracles in our life if we just meditate on them and stay there; our positive and humble thoughts can keep us in a positive mode for a long time .

Don’t allow the devil to distort your thoughts and take you down a dark path .

Keep your mind in a food place. Keep your thoughts positive.

Ending on a positive note,

Signed with JOY,

Joyfully Chrissy Lee πŸ’«πŸŒ»

Stay Positive. Stay Joyful.

Proverbs 17:22 A joyful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.

. . . For the busy people.

Sunset

I find so much beauty in sunsets. I’m fascinated by the beautiful portrait that it paints. I love how the sky becomes a blend of colors that range from mixtures of yellow, orange, blue and even pink. I try to catch as many sunsets as I can, and when I do; I become still in amazement of the masterpiece being painted before my eyes. I can go on and on about the beauty of the sky but I want to focus on the beauty of  “stillness.”

How many of you take a moment to just be still?

There are two levels to the “Stillness” that I am referring to.

Level A: You can find an example in the picture above. I find moments to just sit still in silence and decompress from a long day. I let my thoughts flow and I embrace the moment. I may plan out some things in my head, replay my day or make a list of what I have to do for the next day. I may think about food πŸ˜‹πŸ‘…(mmmmmmm) and what I am going to cook later; re-evaluate some decisions I’ve made; ponder on some things to do with my son; etc. etc. etc. (You get the point ) The thought is to be still in the moment while your mind runs free ( if your busy-minded like me πŸ€”) or maybe you can sit still and not think about anything.

For those of you reading this that are speed readers and just skimmed through the 1st level …… ⚠ SLOW DOWN AND READ LEVEL B. 

Level B: This level takes some discipline but the rewards far outweigh the effort required to be this kind of disciplined. Psalm 46:10a reads Be Still & Know That I AM GOD. This is a brief scripture that I have read and said aloud several times but it is something that I am now just learning to apply to my life. This scripture is simply a call for us to stop what we are doing and acknowledge that God . . .  is God. Now I know you may be scratching your head right now so allow me to elaborate. You may ask “What should I stop doing?” and I am sooooooooooo happy you asked that question.

STOP WORRYING, STOP STRESSING, STOP BEING ANXIOUS, STOP TALKING, STOP COMPLAINING, STOP TRYING TO FIX THINGS, JUST STOP WHATEVER YOU ARE DOING . . . .

           … & SURRENDER ALL YOUR CARES TO GOD. 

Now listen . . . .I know this is all easier said than done. When I was introduced to this scripture through one of my friends; I gave her the same look you are giving this screen.πŸ˜’ I’m thinking the same thing you are thinking. Here were my thoughts:

Yeah  . . .  whatever . . . . being still is not going to get my bills paid. Being still is not going to heal me of ___________ (insert some bad health condition you have/had (God is a healer by the way) . Being still will not help me find love. Being still will not keep my boss from getting on my nerves. Being still don’t have my kids acting right. etc. etc. etc. You can insert whatever applies to you . . . . I am going to move on before I lose your attention. ☝ LOL Stay with me guys and gals.

What if I told you being still and acknowledging God is the very answer you need. I’ll help you out by giving you 4 steps:

Step 1: 🀐 Shut Up (Yes . . .  Some of you needed me to say that) & stop complaining about the issues in your life. (Ephesians 4:29)

Step 2: πŸ™ŒLet it Go – Relinquish your concerns of life/your issues. (Philippians 4:6)

Step 3: πŸ™Pray and have faith for what you prayed for. (Matthew 21:22)

Step 4: 😴πŸ˜ͺRest – Knowing that God WILL provide. (Philippians 4:19)

If you follow these steps (that is such a clichΓ© statement . . .  but it’s true) . . . . IF YOU FOLLOW THESE STEPS . . . . .with consistency . . .  You will have more peace in your life.

I kindly ask that you give God a chance. I kindly ask that you slow down in life.

I kindly ask that you try  . . .  just try to relinquish some . . . . just some of your worries.

I kindly ask YOU  . . . . to just STOP . . . . . AND

BE STILL.

SIGNED WITH JOY (In Stillness),

JOYFULLY CHRISSY LEE

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