Don’t be like β€œAtlas” πŸŒ

There’s a very old building that used to be a Health Spa in Scarsdale, NY.

It was called the European Health Spa.

It’s such an eye sore in such a beautiful town.

Broken Windows

Abandoned

Patched up with Cheap Wood

The building stands tall but alone. πŸ˜”

That was me not long ago.

I was a broken woman. An emotional wreck. Unknowing of who I was or my purpose in life.

I felt abandoned by loved ones and to a certain extent, I abandoned myself. I let myself go and didn’t care about taking care of me (my mental, spiritual and emotional being).

I would patch myself up by finding ways to avoid issues, conflicts and things that really needed to be addressed.

I stood tall and strong to others but felt very much alone & abandoned.

Just like the building.

I passed it as I was driving to my appointment at the European Wax Center in Yonkers and came across this building on Central Park Avenue. (BTW Nel is the absolute BEST Esthetician ever!) Book her @ https://www.waxcenter.com/ny-yonkers

⬆️ (Unpaid Plug – But the more You read my Blogs you’ll learn that I love to celebrate, praise πŸ™ŒπŸΎ & promote others; just because πŸ€·πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ)

This sounds crazy but out of all the business’ on Central Park Avenue ( & there are many); I felt like this building called out to me – as if it wanted to be noticed.

I made a (legal) U-Turn πŸ™ˆ and pulled into the parking lot.

I got out of my car and literally just stared at the building.

I could see what it once was – a beautiful building that probably received a lot of attention. The structure is absolutely stunning and in the front of the building is a statue of Atlas (a Titan God in Greek Mythology).

Just to give you my quick Blip about Atlas. He was at war with Zeus (Greek God) & after his defeat, he was condemned to carry the sky/heavens on his shoulders. πŸ˜” Talk about a harsh punishment.

I remember when I felt like I had the weight of the world 🌍 on my shoulders.

I was so weighed down by my issues ( & there were many). My view of self was so skewed.

I was the beat up & abandoned building. πŸ€•

I can tell you how I got there.

I isolated from my friends, family and God.

I was attending Church β›ͺ, but I was just there as a seat warmer. I didn’t receive anything because I was so blinded by my issues & I wasn’t open to receiving anything.

As time progressed I tried to patch myself up by simply avoiding things that I needed to deal with head on.

Using 4 Christian ✝️ cliche words, I can tell you how I matured into the woman I am now. I learned to “Let Go, & Let God!” Welp, that’s really 5 words but let’s focus on the 4. πŸ˜‰

When you “Let Go”, you stop giving all of your energy to worrying, fretting and stressing a situation or an issue.

When you “Let God”, you invite him in & put all your worries, frets and stresses to him because unlike Atlas – he is strong enough to bare them. ( Don’t believe me?! Read Psalm 55:22 & Matthew 11:28-30)

If Atlas could hand over the weight to someone he would be able to rest.

There are many of you trying to be Atlas … trying to be God

But

You aren’t strong enough to do that

&

You never will be.

Trust Me – I’m speaking from experience. πŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ

Learn to hand over all of the things that are weighing you down to be handled by God.

Don’t be like the broken and abandoned building 🏚 that everyone passes by.

Allow God to build you up so you can mature and grow into the man πŸ‘¨ / woman πŸ‘© that he called you to be.

YOU & I are a BEAUTIFUL creations carefully crafted by God.

You & I can be built up and restored again.

All you have to do is invite God in & let him do his thing.

Again I say – Trust Me – I’m speaking from experience.

Praying for whoever needs to be restored & believing that you will! πŸ™πŸ½πŸ™ŒπŸΎ

Signed with so much Love & Of Course JOY,

Joyfully Chrissy Lee πŸŒ»πŸ’«

Prayer – Lord, I come before you today on behalf of every Broken person. I ask that you give them the strength to speak up and ask for help from you and wise counsel. May they learn to go to you when they are feeling broken because your word says you will hold their hand and help them. (Isaiah 41:13) I cry out to you Lord and ask you to deliver them out of their troubles. (Psalms 34:17)

Now I thank you and praise you for their healing.

In Jesus Name,

Amen πŸ™πŸ½

The Good Fight πŸ₯Š

Ever watched a Boxing πŸ₯Š Match?

Ever seen the one who seems that they will end up losing because they are beat to a pulp?

Eyes Swollen Closed, Face Beat Up, Blood Dripping Down Their Face.

…. Just looking defeated

Overwhelmed

Beat Up

&

Broken down

Each punch they receive breaks them more and more.

That was me ….. completely beaten down before I decided to make the decision to yield to God and his will for my life.

I allowed the enemy to beat me to a pulp and I must say all of this happened post being saved …. yes that means during my journey with Christ.

This battle occurred after I received Christ in my β™₯️ & after being baptized.

I was fighting his will and consistently attending β›ͺ️, running a women’s group at β›ͺ️, facilitating classes for new Christians and New Church Members ….. yep.

▢️ Sorry to burst your bubble if you believe being a Christian is easy πŸ™ˆ. ◀️

The war was on all while doing work for the kingdom. ✝️

I mean I received a good beating and this beating lasted over a period of time …. days …. months …. heck years to be exact. πŸ€”

It was a never ending tussle between my way and his way.

Blame it on my feelings. Blame it on my flesh. Blame it on my stubbornness. The point of blame is null and void.

On the surface – I looked Good & Poised – as if I was at peace within.

Peace was so foreign to me.

My spirit was restless and unsettled and so was my mind.

That’s how our spirits and minds are when we fight.

Picture The Match

πŸ‘€ –

We have Michael Buffer announcing “On my right, I have Christina’s Will & Way standing tall at 5’8, stubborn and unwilling to yield because she wants to do what she wants to do.

“On my left, we have God’s Will standing Mighty & Strong with Mercy and Grace ready to fight the good fight.

I felt like Drago from Rocky IV was in front of me saying: “I must break you.”

Then He Yells – “Lets get ready to rummmmbbblllleeeeeeeee!” πŸ₯ŠπŸ₯ŠπŸ₯ŠπŸ₯Š

Fast Forward to the end and I’m literally laid out on the floor with a White Flag 🏳 (I know there’s no white flag in boxing but you get what I’m saying). πŸ˜†

I was in total submission. Tired of fighting.

Matthew 6:33 tells us to seek his wills and ways.

Jesus submitted to God’s will, suffered badly but did overcome. πŸ’ͺ🏾

The same goes for us. There is a suffering but we do overcome.

Always remember that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who ❀️ God. (Romans 8:28) πŸ™ŒπŸΎ

So take some advice from me ….. and just yield and let God have his way. 😩

Let him use YOU ….. your personality, your gifts and your talents to help others.

Let him use you for his plan.

& for the control freaks out there; we may not know the specifics of the plan but I’m pretty certain you will be helping those in need.

We weren’t created to just live life for us. We were created to serve and bring Glory to the Father and his Kingdom.

I write to you as a flawed Christian with many blemishes that I have acquired along the way.

I also write to you from experiences….. past and present.

Try living for him …. I’m certain you won’t regret it. πŸ˜‰

Humbled By His Grace & Mercy,

Joyfully Chrissy Lee 🌻

The Joy of the Lord will Always Be My Strength πŸ™ŒπŸΎ

Introverted to a Fault πŸ˜©

I TRULY ENJOY TIME TO MYSELF!!!!

Let me say that again – I truly enjoy time to myself.

I don’t think there is anything wrong with that but I’ve had to advocate that very statement quite often. (I’ll elaborate later on πŸ˜‰)

I believe I actually crave for “time with self.”

My quiet time is so important to my sense of well being.

Now – Let this be known – I enjoy social gatherings and I do pop out of my 🐒 shell from time to time but there’s a sense of peace that I receive when I take some me time.

Announcement ‼️ There was a time where my introverted traits kept me in a low place in life and that’s where the title of this Blog comes in – Introverted to a fault. πŸ˜‘

If you have read my previous Blogs (which if you haven’t; you should & while you’re there just make sure you subscribe πŸ˜‰) – Cheesy Plug – then you would know that I had my bouts with Depression.

Being introverted and being in a depressive state is not a good mix.

Why? (You May ask and even if you didn’t I will explain)

Introverts think πŸ€” often. We can internalize our feelings and moods because we are pretty much inward people. Remember – we like alone time; so imagine alone time mixed in with overthinking and juggling your emotions?! That’s not a healthy blend of soup but I was sipping that lonesome 🍲 for quite some time.

I would have these seasons of low points and when my friends would inquire, I would pull out my “Girl, you know I need my me time!” excuse.

I would use my introverted nature to cover up my depression. Now that I think back at those moments, it was such a dumb thing to do because I truly believe my friends knew I was lying. πŸ€₯

As I am writing this I must say; it truly feels good to be speaking about depression in past tense. It’s been quite a journey and it feels so good to finally be at peace with my many thoughts and emotions.

So I close this Blog with a couple of things.

1. I’m still very much an introvert and I love that I am comfortable being alone to recharge but I am well aware that social interaction is good, healthy and needed. For those who helped me come out of my introverted shell – THANK YOU ☺️

2. Being an introvert and being depressed are two different things but if blended together can be very unhealthy. If you are currently struggling don’t be afraid to tell someone. There are people to help you in your journey of finding peace✌🏾. My help came through expressing my feelings, praying, acknowledging I needed help and then seeking help.

3. There are pros of being introverted. I believe we are very self-aware, thoughtful (because we think too darn much) and we overall learn well through observing ( since we always find a quiet place to pull away lol)

Lastly, it’s been a while since I last Blogged – so to my subscribers which I love so so so much – My sincerest apologies and I will do better. ❀️

Signed with JOY πŸŒ»πŸ’«,

Joyfully Chrissy Lee

P.S. —> For those who need assistance on their journey to having a peace of mind; feel free to check out some good reads about Mental Health Awareness . ⬅️ (Not a paid plug but this definitely helped me) πŸ™‚

STOP HIDING – YOU ARE NOT YOUR MISTAKES . . .

Mistake

STOP

Just STOP . . . Please Stop

Beating yourself up about things that have occurred in the past.

YOU ARE NOT WHAT YOU HAVE DONE . . . YOU ARE WHAT YOU HAVE BECOME.

Sure, we all have some periods of our life where we are not proud of. Some periods where we really shake our heads and say “___________ (<—-Insert your name) What were you thinking?” Those moments are for the most part okay as long as you don’t dwell there too much and beat yourself up on the “Could of, Should of, Would of walk of shame.”

Replay those periods of life which you are not proud of to learn from them. Replay those moments of life and share with someone who is in need. (pssss . . . btw . . .  use wisdom when sharing and if you don’t feel you are wise, ask God for wisdom …. See James 1:5)

I am a true believer that we don’t go through things in life just for us but for others; that our lives are testimonies for others. There are people in the world that are desperately seeking to know that someone has “been there and done that too.” People connect with other people that they feel like they are relatable to.

Have you ever shared something and had the other person say “You’ve been through that too?” or maybe they have that surprised look on their face that says that but they don’t come out and say it.

Some of you reading this may have a really dark past, but I want you to focus on the word past. Whatever you have done is done, there is no time machine that exist that will take you back in time to undo what has happened . . .  so pull up your big boy/girl pants; accept that it (whatever it may be) has occurred, learn from it and take steps to move on

&

keep in mind . . . PLEASE keep in mind – that NO ONE . . . . I MEAN NO ONE is perfect or sinless. Don’t believe me?! (Read Romans 3:23)

My hope is that after reading this you are feeling better about your past. My hope is that after reading this you will feel unashamed of where you have been and confident in who you have become. My hope is that one day, you will share something with another in need and that person will receive the breakthrough they need to get them out of their rut.

My HOPE is that after reading this that you will love yourself more, condemn yourself less and see you how God sees you “BEAUTIFUL WITH NO FLAWS “ (Song of Solomon 4:7).

Signed with Joy,

JOYFULLY CHRISSY LEE

Prayer: Lord, I thank you for my past. I thank you for the lessons learned along the way. I am blessed because of my lessons in life and will be a blessing to others. Thank You for the forgiveness of my sins and for your grace and mercy. I will no longer condemn myself because I know I find freedom in YOU. In Jesus name, AMEN.

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