I’ve been asking God to show me – ME
I mean the real me …. the unadulterated, raw Christina.
No make up. No filter. Just me.
And Boy oh Boy 🤦🏾♀️ I was not pleased by what was revealed to me.
Today, I let someone irritate my soul. 😠
I mean really take me out of character.
I’ve even said out loud – “Ugh, I can’t stand him!”
2 Things that can really get under my skin is a person with a nasty attitude and a person with a negative outlook on life …. you know – the Negative Nancies 😑
Ugh – I can’t take being around them. (God’s working on me tho – Y’all pray my strength in the Lord lol 😉 🙌🏾)
Life presents some struggles and hardships and I understand that but I feel like people shouldn’t take their personal stuff out on other people.
Easier said then done ….
You know what ….
Now that I’m writing this …. I’ve definitely done that before 😔
Ugh …. God’s truly showing me – Me even as I write this …. (y’all still praying for me?)
Back to the story – I allowed this person to disturb my ☮️
I don’t know why 🤷🏾♀️
But what I do know is that I was very much checked in my spirit by God. 😞
It brought me to tears. 😢
Our job as Christians is to LOVE people unconditionally just as Christ loves us.
How dare I allow someone to allow me to operate differently.
God reminded me how that same person shared something VERY personal with me some years ago.
He was vulnerable to me and let me in.
Read that again & highlight the word “HE”.
That alone is a big deal because men are not taught nor is it promoted in our society that a male is to be or can be vulnerable
….. but I digress
The person gave me the reason(s) that he is unhappy at times which translates to a bad attitude or a miserable disposition.
I felt horrible. I was so disgusted with myself.
To a certain extent – I still am 😩
1. How and why would I let someone else’s attitude affect me?
2. Why wouldn’t I pause and try to understand why the person is the way they are?
3. Why didn’t I allow the spirit of JOY to be a light to them?
4. Why didn’t I love them just as Christ loves us within our nastiest moments?
I allowed my flesh and my emotions to get the best of me.
I was downright selfish and only thinking about what I like and want to be around; which is another joyful person. A beam of light. A positive person . . .
Aren’t we charged to be the light as Christians??
I definitely failed today and had to make it right.
I pushed my pride and critical spirit to the side and went and asked the person how he was doing.
He told me he was okay but working through some things.
I asked about his family.
We spoke ….. but more importantly; within that moment, we connected….
Just as we had connected years ago.
God showed me that we have to connect with others and then allow our connections with them to be a gateway for them to connect with God.
Now that’s how you witness. 😉
We can’t just witness by putting some scriptures on IG or FB.
We can’t witness by simply going to Church.
The true witness is building and connecting with others – PERIOD
A true witness is the way we act, live our lives and treat others
& DOING THIS ALL WITH THE SPIRIT OF LOVE 💛 & OF COURSE JOY 😉
I repented to God and asked for his forgiveness. ✝️
I have no right to judge or even be irritated by someone else or how they respond to what they may be going through in life.
I should allow God’s spirit of love to lead me – In all things.
I should allow his spirit of compassion to be my guide.
Today – I decide once again (don’t judge me, I’m a work in progress y’all 😆) to allow God’s love to lead me and minister to others.
I hope you will do the same.
This Christian journey is far from easy but hopefully we are all working to be better versions of us.
Ending this blog praying we all get it right …. someday. 😊
Signed with Joy and a Humble 💛,
Joyfully Chrissy Lee 🌻