A Loner . . . Until Now 

For as long as I can remember, I have always been a loner. I have always enjoyed and felt secure with “me time.” It was something I would (and still) look forward to after school, church or a long day at work. As a matter of fact, it was something I craved. As I reflect on why this is the case, I suspect it’s because I’ve always felt misunderstood or that most people didn’t get me. Growing up, I would spend hours alone . . .  just my thoughts and I ….. or my thoughts, music and I or my thoughts, a pen and a pad. ( You get the point.)

I think often, rationalize a bit too much and try to fit LIFE into a logical box. I enjoy pondering about almost anything and find some sort of comfort analyzing things before me. This is a good thing, but not all the time. You see . . . too much analysis and rationalization will send anyone’s mind into overload. Your mind will want everything to make sense and the reality is, everything does not or will not always make sense.
I questioned, why do I find solace when alone? Why is it something I crave? At one point in my life it actually was (past tense) a tool the enemy used during a period of depression. Now fast forward to 2016: my solitude is something God is using to speak to me. My solitude is something God is using to connect with me.

It has been such a fast paced year with one thing happening right after another. I have learned to take my “me time” and turn it into “Me & God’s Time” (BTW I know that’s improper English 😉 …. for all those in the world of academia …. God & I…. Feel better now?!) LOL

I do allow my thoughts to flow. I do still think and ponder but I invite God into my thoughts. I’ve learned to be unselfish and spend time with him by reading his word (A.K.A. The Bible) and then meditating on it.

I ask you to try this. Try inviting God into your “me time” and I promise that you will be blessed by it. Matthew 6:33 reads “But seek 1st the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added unto YOU.”

Seek God …. let him be a part of your world, your space, your time and watch your life change in ways your mind can not even fathom.

Signed With JOY,

Joyfully Chrissy Lee